Where I am lost, there He is found…

Lets get lengthy…

How many times have you been told that you have a great calling on your life?
How many times has it been something decently specific?
How many times have you held those words near and dear to your heart?

Me, I have. Ive been alive now for 22 years, the amount of prophetic words calling out my destiny would fill up a small book. They began coming at a very very young age. Over the years I held them so close to my heart, knowing that I was going to be a great and powerful influencer in such and such ways. Carrying my head up with a little more pride then I like to admit. Walking into every single church environment waiting for someone to notice how great I am or will be. So beyond ready to be asked to lead in the way I know i’ve been called. Each time exiting with greater disappointment then the last. Why was no one noticing me, why were so many great things said to me by random strangers rather then the leaders of the environment? When will it be my time to shine? I mean, shine for God… 
Little did I realize that the more and more I heard how great I was supposed to be the more and more I took a step back from God himself. For a few reasons, one, the pressure got too real and too disappointing, and two, it became about my name being great and not his. Of course, I want to be used for great and glorious things but not if that means my name being glorified and not his. Recently the Lord revealed to me a simple truth. When I say simple I just mean it wasn’t this long sermon or this long verse that I had to read and study, I mean he used minimal and simple words that have more depth to them then the oceans themselves. He said to me, 
“cheyanne, i called you to follow me.” Thats it. Thats all he said. But with these words, I found the depth in who he is and what he is saying to his people. He is simply calling us to follow him, to follow in his footsteps, to be as christ like as we can. What did Jesus do here on earth? He declared the word of his Father, he prayed for the sick, he rose the dead, he loved his neighbors even when they were unlovable. Im not trying to discredit if you were called to be a worship leader, pastor, mother, missionary, etc. I’m all for the prophetic! I still love receiving and giving words. What my point is, is that until we can grasp the simplicity of who we were naturally called to be as a whole body of christ the burden of being anything else will become too great. Mine became to great I lost all ability to dream, I lost all intentions of finding God any more. I lost myself because I was trying to be who they prophetically told me I would be rather then knowing who I was in the moment and what I was called to on the daily. There are a multitude of verses in the Bible that simply state, to go out and share the gospel with the love of christ. Acts 13:47 “For this is what the Lord has commanded us: ‘I have made you a light for the Gentiles, that you may bring salvation to the ends of the earth.’ ” Because of this simple message from the Lord, I have come back to life, I no longer have the pressures of what I could be, or should be weighing me down but I walk in the freedom of knowing who I simply am. That does not mean that I am going to sit here and not be used by God, no matter of fact I feel like I am being more used by him now then I ever have been. I am living under HIS shadow, not my own. I am pursuing HIM and his people with love and truth rather then a platform. The simplicity of God is truly the depth of God.

Cheyanne Ray